i've rediscovered my purpose for life! or rather review my plans again and putting them into action. :)

ahhh... fresh air... once again. :)

Bob

By special request of my dear.. I'm writing in again~! :P

I wonder why life is sometimes so unfair.

Before you jump to any conclusion, one that birth forth out of my own selfish desires and dissatisfactory with life. Please allow me to speak.

Who remembers the frail-looking indian lady selling tissue at Heeren's junction, the old lady at Centrepoint, the blind man on the road between Scotts and Marriot, and of course our blind man in the underpass? Well I do. More than that, I feel a sense of injustice towards them..

What manner of sin have they commit that they are in such states? Why must they suffer? when I see the rich, spoilt and good looking brats whining over missed sales or making sacastic remarks at others, I wonder why. Don't they know their weekly allowance is others monthly wages? What if these are the sole breadwinner in their families??

I pondered often.

Could God have made a mistake?

Many a day I wondered. But I do not doubt my Lord's works..

Already I have an answer for myself. But I sure do wish that the rich can do more for the poor.

Okidoki~

Cheers

Dear Blog,

Finally I'm writing in again. What a long while has passed since I last came to you..

Spring came, bundles of joy it brought
Summer followed, blooming forth
But Autumn snipped away the yellowed thoughts
sending my peace flying north

So it flew
To my yesterday

I opened my eyes and saw a kalaidescope
Formed by stars in the sky
shining, shimmering with a dash of hope
Then I saw a teardrop fly

So it flew
To my yesterday

I searched my pockets, scanned through my seams
In hope of finding my peace
I'm broken, I'm hurt, I'm broke, eating dirt
Dear God, can you spare me some peace?

With net in hands, and a clumsy cage
i lured peace with my broken heart
An effective bait, as promised by God
Let's wait, and my peace will come

So it flew
To my broken cage

weijian li
270305

i just read a story about shmily.. so touching.. so nice... u guys shd look it thru too~

a poem. rather wierd one though..

music man wrecks
bashing and slamming self in a corner
songs, dont defect
lest your voice gets choked by a noose

your sorry state
is but a self-destructorian succeed
you sealed your fate
when he fails to breathe, when help dont intercede

cry all you want
you are nothing but a thought, a squished dream
sing all you want
to the stone cold grey blocks with your facade imprint

weijian li
310105

the home's empty, the lawn's overgrown
pictures scrawnd across the peeling wall
Old, frayed, cold, right down to the bones
lies my mind, a slouched ragged doll

Mary used to adore me at tea
out on that sunny lawn
seated with us is mr teddy
a bright yellow bell he dons

Oh how far art those days
Mary grew up and chuckd us aside
she chased idols and fashion craze
while we laid prey to rats n mites

The days of old passed us by
Mary moved on, but not with us
teddy sobbed, while i tried not to cry
watching her board that fateful bus

Mary mary, where art you now
can you hear your first loves tear
like a broken dam, gushing down
every drop hoped to bring you near

mr teddy had a terrible day
He lost his legs to rodents
head got gnawed away by a stray
before being condemned to a furnace.

There I was, carelessly sprawled
through the days and nights, tears and fright
how i missed my name on Mary's call
those lovely nights, those lovely nights

i just longed for those happiles
Mary my left, teddy my right
chatting over a cuppa tea
how we spent those lovely nights

Mary, teddy, where are you?
Mary, teddy, one's in heaven, the other's in hell
Don't forget to share our brew
mixed with tears, tea leaves and a yellow bell

weijian li
030105

Dear 2004,

thank you..

The memories you have left me.. the times I teared, and cried.. the emotions shared..

thank you for them all..

scale the mountain tops of taiwan
survived the jungles of brunei
fall so deeply in love, so deeply in love with my dear
The strength of the people, in the event of natural disaster.
God's presence and strength in my toughest days...
mastering the art of stand sleeping
My best friends are here, never left me despite my long weeks n months of training..
The smiles shared with my platoon guys in trying times
I found a friend in kimberly
Channel I leaving the tv screen.
Bc rich came into my life
leading my first bunch of recruits
I found a lost friend in wanhui
When faith returns, to know she's going again

well.. these r juz what that comes to my mind for now...

farewell

anyway... hello 2005!

Wow...
how days fly
how time never lie
of what it can reveal
tides aside, nothing concealed

I've gotten myself a bc rich warwick bass.. haha

I've been so bogged down in camp.. not that shagged anymore like ocs daes... juz bz doing the norms... :P

Lord!! let me do greatest in my lifetime!!

Love
weijian

life as an officer...

this week marks my last week as an apc(assistant pc) in "Gyrphon" coy. My stint there was though short, but satisfying. No amount of words can describe the sense of fulfillment when you become a leader of men, young and full energy, the kind of things you can inspire them to do. I enjoy leading by example, running alongside with my recruits, carrying heavier fieldpack to spur them on in route march, standing with them in the grenade bay risking my watermelon with explosives in their butter fingers. When you truely care for your men, they can see, and with it comes respect.

I just bumped into some recruits yesterdae at sakae. although they are from a different platoon, the warmth n frenship extended to me was simply touching. i may not be their leader, but perhaps my dedication to my platoon was evident to them. They also made mention of my inspiring act of packing medicine balls into my fieldpack for route march.

never forget the needs they have. To you they may be a platoon of men, but to them you are an individual, a leader who is empowered to make a difference in their lives.

oh yeah... i'm off to be a staff officer. paperwork n tyranic superiors seems to be the staples of the day. why then did i choose to be a staff you may ask? coz i've got a purpose for my life. i know i'll better spend my free time after office hours out of camp. I've got plans for my future and work for it starts now...

idllic days are but a passing wave
a dream to see, but nought to behold
stop whirling world in your endless daze
to see a purpose, till the daes of old.

gotta go get busy :P

weijian

A lil extract of what i wrote to my most beloved;

i may not be able to impact some old ladies down the streets,
housed alone,
death impending.

But at least i can make a soldier smile,
load lightened,
soul heartening.

Someday, some soldiers will say, "i had this officer who led me for 2 weeks and he inspired much."



Show me a leader, and I'll know his men.
Show me the men, and I'll know their leader.

*someone i forgot who*

ARGH!
what is the world coming to?! So many people been stepping on my feet, chewing on my tiny nerve, kicking me straight into my funny bones.

i'm too tired to tink now...
lemme go rest n tok to zhou gong about tis issue :P

no lahz.
God lah.

good nite folks...

Wat lovely time we had at the Comms Ball!!

My dear took several photos of us around Shangz, dressed in our most elegent ball wear, looking pretty in ever corner of the place. The ambience was great, the place was magnificent, the memories were sweet. Definitely her companionship made it a perfect evening :)

hope to go there again one dae!

Weijian

A thought to pen...

Wow...finally, i'm updating this wonderful blog of mine. it's been a long long while since i last made an input, due to negligiance and procrastination. Yupyup.. oh well, better late than never. Yeah?

time flew by, subconciously, leaving a track to trail.
there i was, stumbling on, an aching soul to fail
try as i may, with might or flight, it never stood still
slowly but surely, my heart to feel, my soul to heal

deep eh?? yeah~! i tot so too! came up with tis in a couple of minutes.

Yesh, time has passed me by so quickly, so fast. Been thru survival, graced a mountain peak, baptized in river, shed tears of joy, fought senselessly, heart flipped ceaselessly, with a rotting limb. frens missed, buddies lost, experience gained, and more to come.

Right now i've already graduated from my school and moved on to a new phase of military life. wow... got a choc bar, tasted it's power, yeah.. feels good but heavy. guess tat's the price to pay, on top of those downpayments for the last 10 months.

Coming back to a place of knowing God more. Praise and faith, making it possible. I'm hoping to contribute more to my cell, church and of coz Godly works. yeah~ things r in the pipeline... coming to past. :)

yeah~ just gotta hold on and enjoy the ride.

some say, you'll never know that you've lived until your existence has been inflicted by external forces.

how true...
I never knew how nice was it to be able to attend school everyday
I never knew how beautiful the HDBs looked at night
I never knew how tasty boiled potatoes tasted
I never knew how wonderful is it to sit around chatting with my grand parents even when obstacles like language and physical deafness stood their ground.
I never knew a lot of the minute things in life that i once took for granted, meant so much to me..

but there's something that's rather peculiar...

I thought I knew you mean a lot to me...
but i was wrong..

You simply mean too much to me... way too much...

Love ya lots bibi dear~!

weijian

yeah~! finally... i'm with Zarah~!

yupyup. Being with her brings me great joy. And i look forward to better years ahead with her till eternity.. hahahaz... mushy??? too bad if ya can't stand it.. :P

okidoki.. i think i'll get back to my bunk soon.

love ya all..

Weijian

hello blog..

Wow... how time flies.. come to think of it.. i've finally made it thru cadet life for so long n now i'm like left with 3 more months before all these ordeal will come to an end.. hopefully :P

right now training is more survival based and before we know it.. there will b a much slimmer me... after all the starving and foot movement over great distances... hahaz.. my final attempt at getting the abs i've never tot existed..

i wonder how's the blogs of my friends... never been able to view them.. coz i've reformatted my com.. yeahz.. so sad.. lost their add.. dumb virus attacked me com while i was away in training..

Kun gave me a very nice t-shirt.. designed by a great friend of mine.. weihao.. then there was this short but meaningful quote on the paper bag.. "whatever relationship that is built on God will never be lost." how it made me ponder bout the friendship between ben n i.. all the talk of brotherhood seems so fake.. am really tired of making the move to approach him, coz he's not helping it at all.. alwaise showing me a black face.. sacastic words..

but i'm gonna try again.. been praying about it.. to mend what was broken.. esp since Zac wants me to patch things with him. hopefully it's bcoz of the friendship that's why i'm doing it, n not solely bcoz of Zac.. else the friendship will be of no point at all..

tink i better go get busy wif me camp prep... gotta book in liaoz..

missya mr blog...

one of those emo moments :P...

Sitting around i idled and stared
at the pictures moving in thin air
flickled upon the walls of my mind
telling a story that made me cry

i'm a thinker and once again i'm flooded by my thoughts. some good some bad some just to take up brain time.

ouch.. my back's aching.. the training has been mighty torturous.. but it's good.. brings me closer to becoming a better soldier..

okie.. tink i better get some rest soon :P

cheerios
weijian

dear blog...

i'm going back to camp once again.. n i'll be having another out field event this coming week.. out fields are not really something that i'll look forward to, esp since i just came back from taiwan earlier tis week.. hmm.. wish i can just sit back n rest... stop all this training and be a civilian.. or at least a 8 to 5 military personnel...

oh well.. i'll just lift my head up and walk this officer grooming path.. Lamp unto my feet, Light unto my path.. trust that God is leading me on in this phase of my life..

just chill out and enjoy the ride~

love
weijian

I'm back~!

Training overseas has really been quite an experience. It gave me the chance to see several of life's issues n other aspects from a different viewpoints, also made me cherish what i have even more...

Hmm.. what a lot of thoughts flooded my mind. Tried to type on several occasions but held back fingers.. wondering if i typed tat then there's so many other events i would need to type... I guess talking to me in person would be the best.. hehehe.. yeah.. missed me? then come find me personally.. and find out what i've been thru during the last few weeks.

basically taiwan is cool if you dont look at the summer heat and mountain ranges. Oh not to forget what impression we left on the taiwanese ladies. Great looking dudes :P yupyup.

Soldiering on~

weijian

I'm surprise~! by the amount of viewership tis place has.. Seems like quite a few of my frens have chanced upon tis lil sauntuary of mine..it somewhat gives me this sense of intrusion.. but then again..touched in a sense, coz people care to read.

due to the overwhelming reader's response to the fainting incident, here's a lil behind the scene of what really happened tat caused me to concuss..

basically i've been training in the scorching sun with minimal shade for 2 days. then my body wasn't in very good shape already.. it was a pre-diarrhoea time, poor appetite coupled with intensive training kinda made my health worst. Then I just keep to the training schedule, didnt want to miss too much of the lessons. yupyup..

So when i finally got admitted, the IV needle kinda activated the fainting pocess. That's when i realized the cause is due to over-exhaustion and dehydration.

So to those of you who have been poking me in the sides n taunting me, i'm not weak hor.. :P

As for those genuinely concern, I'm doing fine liaoz.. yupyup

anyway today's the dae, when soldiers grow wings and fly.. i'll not be around until the 15th of june.. yupz.. so you guys juz enjoy yourselves n don't miss me too much hor~

Soldiering on
weijian

hmm.. i've tried to sleep in.. but can't really.. despite the fact i slept at 5am this morning.. i think my biological clock is set to waking up before the breaking of dawn... tis is bad for me body.. :P

Feels great to be sitting around.. feeling really relaxed.. n tinking of what to do next... something i used to take for granted during my pre-poly n poly years. Amazed at how mindsets are changed by the army..

okiez.. i better do something more productive.. else i'm gonna stab myself silly when i begin my mad rush juz before my flight..
yupyup.. u heard it rite.. i'm flying off to taiwan already... yeah~ for my first overseas training.. cool eh? will get to see loads of things and interact with loadsa people. yeah~!

but i'll miss home n the people around.. yupz.. u guys... oh well.. 3 weeks aint too long eh?

soldiering on~!